Fearing to forget you

somewhere between then and now

I lost the sound of your voice

and the shape of your laugh—

and god,

I think I’m losing

your face too.

we used to call each other

like breathing

natural, necessary,

daily.

now it's just

three dots

and silence

on a screen.

I reach for memories

like fog

and find

nothing

but outlines.

what if

I forget you completely?

what if

this is it—

no return

no rewind

no you.

that

is what scares me most.

not that you left—

but that

someday

I might

let you go.